Me - when I’m lonely.

  • Dochyo
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    132 years ago

    One of the important things to ask yourself is: do you miss the person themselves or the idea of the person? For my part i am often unsure. But if you miss them as an idea (partner, lover, companion, generalized personality traits) you should check yourself. If you miss them as a person perhaps you could assosiate with them on different terms, but you should be careful.

    • @sascuachOP
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      72 years ago

      idea of the person

      Hey you actually noticed this too! In general, a lot of people love their idea of person the rather than the real person. Which i’ve been wondering about a lot lately. Any musing on how to tell if you’re in love with your perception of a person rather than the actual person?

      • Gaywallet (they/it)
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        32 years ago

        Any musing on how to tell if you’re in love with your perception of a person rather than the actual person?

        Write down the specific things you miss, and then ask yourself whether you’d miss any person who did those things or had those traits.

        I think it’s entirely reasonable to miss both, and in fact very natural. In many cases you’re grieving what’s absent from your life now that they are gone - the presence they brought into your life, the people they introduced you to, the things you did together, the way they made you feel, etc.

        Another good exercise is to look at what they brought to your life and ask yourself whether any of the rest of your social network can provide these things or currently does. This can be a good way to find out where you can strive to grow your life. If they were the only person you could go to with difficult feelings, you should probably branch out and look for other people who can fulfill the same role even if they don’t fulfill it in exactly the same capacity. If you’re monogamous there are things which only your partner will be able to provide, but you should try and abstract ideas like physical touch from sex because both are important and they potentiate each other.

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          Write down the specific things you miss, and then ask yourself whether you’d miss any person who did those things or had those traits.

          I knew I had no standards before but writing them out really emphasizes that feeling. I got: 1. just the company of having someone around even if we’re not talking, 2. ample eye contact, 3. things like holding hands or even just sitting shoulder to shoulder.

          I’m het dude and have been having a a good time with dudes, which I guess is because it’s pretty easy to have 1 and 2 met.

          Thinking about it, I think I’ve had better friendships with women. With men, I suspect some degree of machoism might make them do stuff like less eye contact? Which might explain my findings.

          • Gaywallet (they/it)
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            22 years ago

            Have you considered seeking these kinds of behavior out from people whom you are not dating? I understand that the fact you are dating may make you feel differently about these particular acts, but getting regular bodily contact with people you enjoy spending time with may make it easier to deal with not having a partner and help you move on from your ex.

            • @sascuachOP
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              22 years ago

              Have you considered seeking these kinds of behavior out from people whom you are not dating?

              Yeah I’m open to that. But not sure where to begin with that that isn’t what I’m already doing

              • Gaywallet (they/it)
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                22 years ago

                While it may seem weird to ask since you’ve never asked your friends about it before, you might want to start by asking them. Like if you feel compelled to sit next to someone you could ask if its okay to sit next to them. You could ask your friends if its okay to cuddle. I regularly ask people if I can lay my head down in their lap, because I enjoy that particular dynamic. I understand for societal and internalized reasons why you might not want to do this with people of certain genders, but I would ask you to challenge these assumptions with the people you know and love. However, if you’re too uncomfortable with this idea to put it into practice with your existing friend group, you could seek out friends for which this is a dynamic you are looking for. You might be surprised how many people out there are explicitly okay with and seeking for this kind of behavior from their friends. It might help to explicitly seek out queer friend groups as they tend to be much more okay with and display this kind of affectionate behavior more often.

                • @sascuachOP
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                  32 years ago

                  It might help to explicitly seek out queer friend groups as they tend to be much more okay with and display this kind of affectionate behavior more often.

                  Yeah i have noticed this! One gay male acquintance would say uhh compliments / excessively nice statements to me (read: strange to hetero culture over here) I didn’t really know what was going on and just assumed the guy thought i was good looking or smthg but i didn’t mind since he wasn’t sleezy about it.

                  You could ask your friends if its okay to cuddle.

                  Similarly, 2 bi acquintances said they’d cuddle naked and shower and stuff and I had absolutely 0 idea what they were going on about, bc apparently they weren’t interested in the other and that 404 errorred me so probably just nodded my head and maybe threw out an active listening statement. Personally, that’d be way to much for me circa 2022.

                  Female friends did wayyy more affectionate stuff with each other then us lads. I always felt it was lame af of us lads. Like my exgf would dance with a male friend’s gf, leaving us with, uhh, nothing to do for like a few mins. When the gfs would initiate dancing with each other, i’d sorta look over at the dude and try to feel out if he wanted to dance together or something, but nada.

                  I regularly ask people if I can lay my head down in their lap, because I enjoy that particular dynamic.

                  Wow crazy, this would have Never had crossed my mind! What gender and sexuality are you if you don’t mind me asking? I’m cishetman.

                  I’ve noticed with a few males i suspected were gay that they’d be less friendly with het males then women. I figured they were concerned i’m douchbag or had worse experiences with het men so i didn’t mind much. But doesn’t exactly make it easy for me to talk to them.

                  Now that i’m a poor adult, i don’t even know how to meet people my age outside of like work. Which is largely due to poverty and my time away from work is spent trying to save money to afford rent. Ex having to walk everywhere takes a while. (Okay, i do know how to meet people… I mett some cool people now and then but very rarely get a chance to follow up on it)

        • @sascuachOP
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          52 years ago

          Interesting story the other day, a male and female friend did something independently that I found cute. I didn’t tell either of them that it’s cute. For the male - didn’t want to offend him by saying X was cute. For the female, didn’t want her to think I’m hitting on her.

          A few years ago I offended a male friend by saying something along those lines.

          Honestly, feel slightly bad to have to check my speech and I def didn’t check myself with the ex. I could try talking with these friends about this but uhh I don’t know how to bring it up, specifically around the male.

          • Gaywallet (they/it)
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            22 years ago

            I typically ask people what words to use or avoid with them when complimenting and follow it up with “such as cute or handsome” because it tends to get the point across when it comes to gendered language. People have hangups for many valid reasons and I want people to receive language in the way they desire.

      • Dochyo
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        12 years ago

        For my part i am often unsure.

        You’ll find no sage here. When it comes to questions of how to think, I’d recommend people to read philosophy.

        We’re talking about a person as a social role; a person as an idea vs a person as a reality. When I say ‘Man/Woman’, ‘Lover’, ‘Partner’, ‘Boyfriend/Girlfriend’, ‘attractive’, ‘sex’, certain thoughts come to mind, without context you likely have forms/images in your mind you would give to these words, idealized forms, possibly even multiple distinct forms for the same word, which are likely rooted in popular culture or lived experience.

        Are you thinking more about the person, or the idealized form you associate with the context that person had in your life?

        Can you remove the person from the role and still value them as a person?

        If your ex were to love another, would you be able to have a genuinely positive reaction towards this?

        “Love” is a word we should be careful with when referring to a former lover, thinking in those terms might cause confusion even if we’re attempting to mean it in the general sense. We often concieve of “love” as having some sort of profound meaning, but even if we’re not rejecting that line of reasoning outright, it is important we should distance ourselves from it in this case and answer the more basic question: Is this person, as they are, important to me? And maybe equally: Am I still of any importance to them? Because any real relationship is mutual.

        That might be the limit of what I have to say on the matter, for the most part my study has been on the dialectics of relationships, not so much on how to think about them after the fact.

        • @sascuachOP
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          12 years ago

          Are you thinking more about the person, or the idealized form you associate with the context that person had in your life?

          Is much more along my lines

          my study has been on the dialectics of relationships, not so much on how to think about them after

          You study relationships?

          • Dochyo
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            22 years ago

            I studied mine. If I was going to address the problems we’d had, I needed to understand them. Understanding a problem isn’t always enough to solve it though, as i found out.

            • @sascuachOP
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              12 years ago

              Understanding a problem isn’t always enough to solve it though, as i found out.

              Can I ask you to share your story and findings?

  • SudoDnfDashY
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    112 years ago

    Never. Can’t miss ex’s if you don’t have em.

    • @geoma
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      52 years ago

      Too much emacs for this guy

      • SudoDnfDashY
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        42 years ago

        I’ve only been using Emacs for a couple months. I’ve been lonely my entire life.

        • @geoma
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          42 years ago

          Sorry, it was a bad joke

          • SudoDnfDashY
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            32 years ago

            No need to apologize, I’m only lonely because I’m gay in the American South.

            • @geoma
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              22 years ago

              So being gay is still difficult there? Everyone is hetero and they look at you as kinda weird for being gay?

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  • @onlooker
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    42 years ago

    When you don’t aim carefully enough.

  • @yxzi
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    42 years ago

    I sure miss the good times, but not to forget there were plenty of bad times, too

  • @hanabatake
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    22 years ago

    Never, I accepted they belonged to the past. They are a beautiful part of the past, but still I don’t regret it. We grew up from the relation and we are better elsewhere