I quit my military-industrial-complex job with nothing lined up because it made me feel awful and was ethically sickening to assist in the development of infrastructure for a global exploitation machine. I gained 30lbs in the time I worked there and had panic attacks multiple times a week about how I was building a legacy of actively participating in something I vehemently opposed in belief. When I quit, I was unemployed for 3 months and tore through my savings. Then I found a new job with much better pay and a better culture it seemed. Then covid happened, my new job offer was revoked a week before moving, & my own and my partner’s depression spiralled to the point of a breakup. I found another new job in the environmental/renewable energy sector. I lost all the weight. Last week I found out we might be completely budget-fucked unless Biden wins this election and enacts a serious climate plan to reinstate grants. I am proud that I haven’t funnelled the immense negativity I have felt this year into something toxic.