Physically painful, mentally crushing. I didn’t speak to anyone for a week and a half, just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Everything ached, my skin felt like it was on fire in random patches that kept moving around, and I was more depressed than I had ever been in my life to that point.
Daily usage was fairly high, I was snorting or smoking 4-6 grams a day depending on purity. Which…like… looking back? I’ve got no idea why I’m not dead. Between sleep deprivation, chemical intake, and not eating… definitely should have kicked off.
I’ve been clean off meth for 20 years in May or June this year, and clean off everything else except weed and alcohol for 16 sometime closer to September.
I actually don’t regret a single thing, I would highly advise against doing meth or any other chemical stimulant, but I learned a lot about myself and my breaking point. I regret being a smoker more than anything from that period of my life. I also regret that most of my friends from around then are dead or in jail. Two of us managed to move on and have a normal life, and the rest were either dead before 30, in the clink for another 5-10 or are living off the dole with no further aspirations in life than getting stoned and playing video games.
Didn’t really have a choice. I had started to attract the attention of the law, and I could see myself spiraling out. Didn’t want that, I’m too soft for a life of crime. So… shear force of will? Stubbornness?
Physically painful, mentally crushing. I didn’t speak to anyone for a week and a half, just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Everything ached, my skin felt like it was on fire in random patches that kept moving around, and I was more depressed than I had ever been in my life to that point.
Thanks for sharing. What was your daily usage, while you were consuming? How long have you been off off meth?
Daily usage was fairly high, I was snorting or smoking 4-6 grams a day depending on purity. Which…like… looking back? I’ve got no idea why I’m not dead. Between sleep deprivation, chemical intake, and not eating… definitely should have kicked off.
I’ve been clean off meth for 20 years in May or June this year, and clean off everything else except weed and alcohol for 16 sometime closer to September.
I actually don’t regret a single thing, I would highly advise against doing meth or any other chemical stimulant, but I learned a lot about myself and my breaking point. I regret being a smoker more than anything from that period of my life. I also regret that most of my friends from around then are dead or in jail. Two of us managed to move on and have a normal life, and the rest were either dead before 30, in the clink for another 5-10 or are living off the dole with no further aspirations in life than getting stoned and playing video games.
How did you get through all that?
Didn’t really have a choice. I had started to attract the attention of the law, and I could see myself spiraling out. Didn’t want that, I’m too soft for a life of crime. So… shear force of will? Stubbornness?
That’s some crazy high level of willpower
Ehhhh…I guess? I’m still a smoker, so maybe that says something about the addictiveness of nicotine…