Do you have knee jerk reaction thoughts on situations or people you know to be false, but keep coming up and need to consciously suppress and remind yourself they’re irrational?
Do you have knee jerk reaction thoughts on situations or people you know to be false, but keep coming up and need to consciously suppress and remind yourself they’re irrational?
I’m so used to people bullying me during school and high school, that I feel wrong when strangers do not immediately begin loathing my presence.
You are not alone with this. After being put down for so long you end up internalising it and finding self-acceptance after that is hard and takes time. It also requires effort and help from others, which makes it even harder when you feel you’re not worth their time.
My problem is, I have no help from others available whatsoever, and chances are I never will. I’m too mentally tired to force myself into self-acceptance when the few people left around me are actively hindering my progress in that regard.