Oh I feel this. You my friend, need to grab the bull by the horns and take a personal holiday. Even if only for a weekend. And when I say holiday I mean drive to the next town or somewhere not far away that you like and simply do nothing. Just play games, eat at a restaurant by yourself, sleep in. Whatever it is you want. You can be free and not judged. Everybody should be free to take an occasional “me time” break.