I tried some of the alternatives you mentioned, and I understand your feelings.
Lemmy is, so far, quite the opposite of Ruqqus. You’ll finds more memes from the left and posts about technology, open source projects, etc.
Stay a while and, if you don’t like it, you can always create your own instance and tune it as you please.
And welcome!
I can live by my own, I don’t really need anybody. But I’m grateful that I have a huge network of friends and family able to help me if I’m in need
I like “Up to you” because, at least to me, it evokes empowerment, ability to take a decission, personal responsability, and control over it. And it has a positive feeling, but up to you ;-)