MYWNcWR9Rgc31zkhTOsA [they/them, she/her]

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Cake day: August 19th, 2023

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  • I’ve been mostly sticking to my usual daily cardio and bodyweight routine at home, and my bum and thighs are definitely getting bigger. I split my favourite pair of jeans, my second favourite have been far too tight for several months, and I can’t afford to replace either of them. But it’s progress I guess.

    We had a lot of rain here a couple of weeks ago which temporarily broke the boiler (landleech knows it keeps happening and doesn’t gaf) so I had some cold showers too. For me, they’re fine right after a workout but almost like a form of torture when you’re already freezing cold.















  • It seems like you’re just insecure in your identity (imposter syndrome is very common amongst trans folks) and you’re projecting. I don’t really have much in the way of advice about the insecurity aspect (I’ve been on hormones just over 4 years and still often feel like I’m not good enough and worry a lot about how others perceive me), but it seems that you have an awareness of your thoughts and behaviours and want to change them.

    I would say, keep being mindful of yourself and challenging your behaviours when you notice them. Maybe some kind of support group could be helpful too, where you can see other people being vulnerable and hopefully learn to talk about your problems and insecurities and deal with them in a more helpful manner. There are quite a few (usually gendered) mostly allocishet groups in my area, though I personally feel much more comfortable in trans-only groups. The trans groups tend to break by age (-18, 18-25, 25-40, etc) and sometimes by trans masc / trans fem.