I would say my philosophical mindset is an ever expanding garden fertilised by nihilism, stoicism, and buddhism. I try not to fetishise philosophies, leaders, or people and try to learn something from every ideology I come across.

I appreciate the mantra “I will desire nothing” and I think it has helped me many times in my life when things have collapsed around me. If you do not focus on what you want and instead focus on what you can do to improve I find you are always surprised and grateful for what you receive.

One of my rejections of buddhist philosophy is a complete removal of ones self from the physical plane. This includes self denial; acts of self denial can be selfish and I think it’s important that the goal of wanting nothing and being a good person should always be considered when denying oneself. It should be the result of a moral decision, not a guide for it. I know this is discussed in the teachings, but I often find anglosised buddhists focusing on their removal rather than their presence.

Something I would like to get better at is to dissolve the construct of my individual self and undergo ego loss. To remove the ideologies I have been taught and stop telling myself stories that prevent me from improving.

@ajz
34M

Your post looks interesting, thanks. It also confuses me a bit. You want to strive for ego loss, and “desire nothing” but several words seem to indicate that you are still struggling for a better self in the future. In some Zen stories the student reaches awakening when they finally, after years, give up wanting to awaken. That is something which I read, years ago, and fascinated me.

@creativeBoarClimate
creator
24M

I refer to self improvement in terms of putting myself in a position to make more moral decisions.

But yeah, life is a series of contradictions and false starts

@kernel
24M

Insightful post, thanks!

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