I am really hated here, as a Chinese-American. I got bullied so hard in public school that my right rib cage is caved in a bit. I’ve always had bruises coming home, the teachers did nothing because they support abuse against Asians. The most hellish part was physical education where the white/black/latino students would deliberately throw balls at my face. Non-Asians who didn’t like me (which is mostly all of them) would spread nasty rumors behind my back to ruin my reputation and further the bullying. Even some Asians, such as a South Korean I remember, would join in on the bullying because he believed it would make him adjacent white. I was accused of being privileged, but I believe Asians are bottom second next to the indigenous in privilege. It’s so much bullshit dealing with the fake information about us. Oh, there was that time where I got assaulted by a black student and probably got brain damaged from repeatedly getting bashed in the right part of my head. I’m a NEET now due to the PTSD and contemplate suicide everyday, I don’t think there’s a future for me at the age of 23, jobless ever since graduating high school. I was predetermined to fail ever since my parents brought me into this hellhole country. I wish I could send a message to every native Chinese to stay away from this place. You’ll gain nothing but suffering.

It’s sad every time I look into the mirror, I used to be decent in appearance but the crappy food here has made me obese and ugly.