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  • DankZedong @lemmygrad.ml
    6·
    2 years ago

    Yeah that’s a reaction to fear, I have it as well. I’m scared of things of course, but needles just trigger a huge fear in me. I giggle, I talk a lot, I have nervous movements, I start sweating and my vision starts to go black. I have 0 reason for this, it’s like this for as long as I remember. People that don’t know this are always amazed when they see me like that, as I’m normally a calm and composed person. Needles throw all my control away.

    • Ratette (she/her)@lemmygrad.ml
      4·
      2 years ago

      Awwwwh 🫂 it’s just one of those fears that is kinda totally rational. Why would you be okay having metal pierce your body?

      For me it’s the fact you can feel it go in and I got told a horror story of someone tensing their arm muscle and trapping the needle inside one time as a kid so now that haunts me 😱

      • Arsen6331 ☭@lemmygrad.ml
        4·
        2 years ago

        I only have a reaction when I can feel the substance under my skin after the needle is removed. This usually only happens when I have to get injected in my face because the skin there is extremely sensitive. The needle itself does nothing, and nothing happens if it’s injected anywhere else, but specifically when I get injected in my face, I get a vasovagal response within 1-2 minutes and go into bradycardia. I already know precisely when it’s about to happen because I’ve experienced it quite a few times now as it was triggered by pain caused by my genetic condition

        Anyway, I certainly don’t have good luck when it comes to genetics. At least I don’t have any allergies.

        • Ratette (she/her)@lemmygrad.ml
          5·
          2 years ago

          Oh damn I don’t know how you cope, the anticipation alone would have me shaking.

          My nurse knows I’m a coward so she just gets me waffling about how much I hate tories and then stabs me when I’m distracted the fiend.

          • Arsen6331 ☭@lemmygrad.ml
            3·
            2 years ago

            I’ve gotten desensitized to it due to years of constant injections and blood draws. I used to be scared when I was younger (lasted until I was around 10 years old) to the point that I would literally physically fight the nurses and doctors, though I was too young to actually do any harm to them. Even when something has to be injected into my face, the vasovagal reaction is not due to fear, at least not consciously, it’s just kind of a response to the weird sensation of feeling a liquid under my skin.