The pandemics are what really get me right now. Long covid brain fog is basically early onset Alzheimer’s disease. My grandma died from that in 2007 after a long struggle and it was a horrible time for everyone involved. And for me, being trans and transitioning later, I especially can’t afford to get it. When you get Alzheimer’s the memories leave you in reverse order. That means that one of the first things I’d forget is my new name and my real gender, and the only things I’d be able to remember would be from the dissociative haze before my transition. That’s terrifying to me and I’d rather die quickly and painfully.

And the chances of this excruciating, slow undeath go up every time you catch Covid. And people are catching Covid again in less than a month in some cases. And once you catch it, it doesn’t leave your body. I’m immunocompromised already, maybe because of getting Covid at the start, maybe because of something else. How am I supposed to be able to live a good, long life like this? It’s impossible. And to top it off, we have a second pandemic ongoing (monkeypox) that most countries are taking almost no precautions against. And climate change will be constantly sending more things our way while everyone gets acquired immunodeficiency from Covid. It’s insanity to allow this virus to spread as it has and we insist on spreading it as much as possible. The only thing that gives me hope among all of this is that this pandemic will hasten the decline and fall of the American empire. May it go quietly and a socialist state grow quickly from its rotted corpse.