How long have you called yourself a communist?

I think there’s an initial phase where you accept the label and you get all excited for the revolution.

Then the reality sinks in and you realise that being ready for the revolution doesn’t mean landing on an island or marching thousands of angry workers to parliament.

It’s a bit draining when you learn that most of the task will be extremely boring day job-type tasks. Arranging meetings. Confirming minutes. Standing in the cold at the time and place you told everyone you’d have a protest. Calling/messaging everyone on your list. Booking coaches. 😴 Sounds like a job but one you don’t get paid for and might never see much fruit from.

Maybe you’re somewhere at the start of that second phase? Not ‘less communist’ but more realistic about what it will take to make the whole world communist (or just your country/city/union to start with). It’s kinda demoralising but things get easier and more hopeful again.

You’ve seen the light now. Keep pushing through.