Hey comrades, I hope this doesn’t break the rules but I needed someplace to rant to sane people. I know how well threads like this go over on R*ddit. Due to some hefty psychological abuse during my childhood, I suffer from bad social anxiety. Until very recently I couldn’t even talk to strangers via phone, Discord, or Email.
It took me so long to realize that I needed help and even longer to gather the strength to seek it that I am 25 now and only started getting better slowly. I just feel like it took me too long and now recovering is meaningless. I never went to any parties or clubs because I couldn’t and I also didn’t have romantic connections.
The thought of asking someone out terrifies me. I am completely clueless in dating matters and overcoming this seems like an impossible roadblock. It feels like I am already too old to have no clue about relationships and I will be definitely too old once I get over my fear of approaching someone. I don’t want to be alone forever. I don’t want to become some weird incel creep but I also feel like I already crossed the point of no return. And yet I feel silly for worrying about this. I know a lot of you have far greater problems in life. Me complaining about having social anxiety and being single just shows how good my life is if this is truly my biggest problem but I still can’t shake it.
Sorry that this rant is so uncoherent and leading to nothing I just had to get this out in an environment that is actually supporting and understanding.
Edit: thanks everyone for the kind words. I was shedding some tears while going through your replies. I was that deeply touched. I count myself once again lucky to belong to such a kind and caring community (can’t believe libs call US red red fascists) and I now feel much better about myself. I feared I was alone in my fight, and even though I haven’t met a single one of you in real life, I now know I am not. I will get around to answering everyone of you but it might take me a day or two.
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Definitely not too late. I also have social anxiety, especially with strangers, and I only recently became active online (just Lemmygrad at the moment). I think it’s been helpful to talk to people here, even if the conversations are very short, especially since I’ve become alienated from the few people I actually used to talk to since I learned about imperialism and lies about AES countries.
You’re also not at all silly for complaining about this. I think this is a good place for ranting and discussing this kind of thing.
The other comments are much better but I’ve already written this, so here ya go. Judging by your username, I assume you like cats, so here’s a virtual hug in image form from a fellow enjoyer of animals
Thank you. I would send a virtual hug back but there seems to be no other picture on the internet of a cat and a capybara cuddling. If you need someone new to talk to send me message. I think it’s helpful for both of us if we try talking to strangers 😄
:)