I’ve been a communist since 2017 or so. I’ve taken personal risks to help Palestine and have followed the genocide very closely. I didn’t vote for Trump or Harris. Throughout Biden’s presidency, I insisted online and offline that he was merely a continuation of Trump’s presidency. I know that Trump’s second stint in the White House is just more of what Biden was doing, but with less of a mask. Liberals, at the same time, are saying that we deserve to suffer and die for not supporting Kamala. Elon’s Nazi salute, along with the fact that it was barely mentioned if at all in the corporate press—meaning that the vast majority of westerners around you are not even aware that it happened—also really just broke something in me. I’m half Jewish, and I’m like, this is the sign that it’s time to go. Jews who support isn’treal have nothing to fear, for the moment, anyway, but communist Jews? Those concentration camps Obama and Trump and Biden built aren’t just for undocumented immigrants. Plenty of American citizens of all colors are going to wind up there, too. The idea seems to be that the ruling class here is finished with immigrant labor and is interested in expanding prison slavery.
I thought I could deal with Trump being in the White House again, that it would just be the same shit, but funnier. I’m not in a terrible financial position and I’m a cis white guy. But it’s been hard for me, like I think about it constantly and have trouble focusing on anything else. I’ve been spending more time here, too, since hexbear really is a refuge from the rest of the internet (I also got xiaohongshu). But I just started applying for jobs in China (after a hiatus of a year or so). I don’t know if I’ll actually end up going since getting the work visa is such a pain (fingerprints + using a courier service to get original important documents back and forth to the Chinese embassy), and I have mixed feelings about leaving too, since not everyone can go, and if I leave, that’s one less person to help fight fascism. I think Lenin said that labor aristocrats are weak, cowardly, unreliable, and that’s me at this point, just whining about the apocalypse (the unveiling). I’ve been wanting to write something like this here for a day or two and just thought I would share to see if anyone else is feeling similarly. Sorry for the long paragraphs but I’m honestly not sure how to break it up. Feel free to criticize me if you want.
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You are not alone. Optimism is key. Evil inevitably turns on itself.
it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society
Nah i feel this. I keep sane by bringing it up with people like you’re doing here cuz sometimes it feel like everyone in the world is just cool beans while things are crashing down. But when i talk to em they’re not doin well either. Everyone is just waiting around for the sound of the other shoe or to be saved
I’ve been spending more time here
You’re not wrong about the world, but it probably wouldn’t hurt to just
from time to time. The Nazis won’t stop doing dumb shit, but we don’t need to consume the discourse around every dumb thing they do either.I guess this is the one area where I’d vouch for some “personal responsibility” because it’s not like any guardrails are coming for tech usage
What is crazy is how pointing/calling out any of the insanity that occur such as the blatant nazi salute from ketamine laden nazi gets you into trouble, not the fucking nazi. All that is to say, you are not crazy, the group that sees the insanity and being complacent and gaslighting us into thinking that is the norm are the fucking crazies.
Unfortunately, you are being very sane about it. We live in an insane society.
Most people I know are not aware of all the forces that make up their consciousness. I’ve kind of learned that Plato’s cave analogy is the exact problem I run into with these people. I can’t change their consciousness completely, but maybe plant some seeds and hope they grow into something. Alot of the time if I share my views it boils down to a “what are you going to do about” which is very individualist thinking, but also not really wrong to ask. I just don’t like that the person asking thinks they themselves are excluded from having to choose an action. Moving to China is also something I thought about, but I do feel like it’s not really the answer unless things get extremely bad.
I also think if you are alone in these views (in your real life, not including online) then you’re going to go crazy. I found some people in real life that are like minded and that has made me feel a bit better.
America feels like being an animal trapped with other starving animals. it would be nice to live somewhere that feels like a shared project on some level instead of this settler hell
And 70% of those animals do nothing about their starvation 🥰
I’ve seen a TikTok video with dumbass modern day upbeat music that shows the decline of native land over the past 250 years or so. Just a deeply evil and disturbed country with a two armies, one enlisted and one fighting the war against capitalism for free
I feel this in my soul every day. If I didn’t have my little community of queer people I don’t think I would survive.
You’re not crazy. Bush couped the country in 2000. Obama was a continuation. Trump was a continuation. Biden was a continuation. Trump will again be a continuation.
The continuation is making sure the capitalists win at any cost and imperialism. Every single politician who gains power in the US seeks to protect American corporate interests through imperialism.
And even before bush, nearly every post ww2 president has been the same. More capitalism, more imperialism. We’re just in end stage capitalism now so the barbarism is naked.
Brother, I am losing my mind
Mark my words, the Democrats will have an open Nazi as a house rep by 2032. Bipartisanship!
I’m convinced that Fetterman and Manchin are eventually going to be test cases for a mass Republican defection and creation of a single party state, everyone’s just waiting for the right moment.
Eh, the two party illusion is just too useful.
look at the world and tell me the pleasures of sanity
You’re NOT crazy. You’re just a dude who can read and do back analysis on his reality.
I feel similarly. trying to keep it together so I can be useful. Going to consult my friends who are members of marginalized groups on how I can best be a helpful ally going forward.
First,
Second, none of waves hands at everything is your fault. There’s basically zero class consciousness in the countries of the west’s “international community”.
Third, even Lenin himself had to leave his homeland to protect himself so that he could fight another day. You’re not abandoning the fight against fascism. You’re doing what you need to do to survive in the meantime, and you’re doing it without selling out comrades to fascist authorities. I can’t truly speak for a dead man but judging from his writing and actions I think Lenin&friends would understand and approve.
