The withdrawal certainly isn’t getting any better, but I think I’m really gonna be able to do it this time. I’ve been up since about 4 or 5, I just couldn’t sleep very long at all. And I’m still pretty fuckin sick otherwise from withdrawal. But I went to 2 groups yesterday, and am about to attend another one this morning. My goal is to go to at least one everyday this week. I’m so tired of being stuck in a cycle of withdrawal, where one hard night of binging puts me back to being physically dependent almost immediately because of my past Phenibut addiction. I know I’ve posted here a million times about relapsing, but I really think this is gonna be the time that sticks and that excitement is keeping me going.

  • Nakoichi [they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    16·
    3 months ago

    17 days here but I have had the added luxury of being on the rez last couple weeks and there is no alcohol here at all. It’s been a lot easier with no access and a lot of work to distract me so I’m gonna try to keep it up when I go back home.

  • GrouchyGrouse [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    11·
    3 months ago

    Now is about the time where it actually starts to get better. Day 4 and day 5 will still be rough and you might not notice it because your body will be in a state of exhaustion but the actual withdrawals will start to subside. You can do it, comrade. I’m rooting for you.

    • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]@hexbear.netOPMEnglish
      7·
      3 months ago

      I’m lucky that I saved the last of my Librium for last time for days 4 and 5, so I’m hoping it the withdrawal is still light enough to be poked through with the small amount of Librium I have.

      • GrouchyGrouse [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
        5·
        3 months ago

        Good plan. It should give you the boost you need at that moment. Also, your physical appetite will start to get better but emotionally you might not feel like eating, if that makes sense. “Eating restores appetite” as the old saying goes so try like a slice of toast even if you don’t feel like eating but it’s been a while since you had a meal.

    • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]@hexbear.netOPMEnglish
      4·
      3 months ago

      Yeah, I’ve been struggling with this for a long time. It won’t come easily, but I really think this is gonna be the time that does it for me. Finding secular and healthy support groups has been great, even have one that’s specifically for queer people! I’m definitely in the best place I could be to be sober.

    • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]@hexbear.netOPMEnglish
      3·
      3 months ago

      It’s worthwhile. If you have a hard time with it, feel free to post here or PM. I made this comm for drug shitposting and people who want a healthy relationship with them. In my case, with alcohol, my best relationship with it seems to be away from it.

      If you’ve been drinking daily for a while though, get medical help when you quit. If you can put down the bottle and not feel like shit, you’re probably cool, but if you do feel like shit, go to urgent care or the er. Sometimes it’s fairly minor, if you’re only babysitting 3-4 beers a day. But if you like hard liquor and go through more than like a third of the bottle a night, it can be an absolute nightmare that with potential to be fatal. That’s how Amy Winehouse died. Mine is more minor this time though, so I’m just keeping a stash of my old withdrawal meds in case I start getting seizures because I’m prone to them, but I don’t feel in danger. Minor withdrawal is just a shit hangover for 3-4 days straight.

  • Alaskaball [comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    4·
    3 months ago

    That’s a lot better mindset to have Leyla, keep thinking of your journey to sobriety as a rising tide. As we watch the waves wash the shore we notice it recedes, yet every time a new wave progresses it swells with greater size and reaches further than the last wave as it reaches new land. Even the receding water will recede less and less with each new wave, and gradually through steady and methodical repetition it’ll come to flood the land and reshape nature through its momentum.

    You got this!

    • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]@hexbear.netOPMEnglish
      2·
      3 months ago

      It gets easier with every day, the faster the shit clears from your body the better. Something that helped me was I went on a walk to dollar tree earlier to get some shaving razors. Got some powerade too cause sports drink is great for withdrawals.

      I need to write an alcohol withdrawal guide like I did for opiates, I have all the tips but just need to write it out