Hello everyone,

You all know me as Arsen6331

A while ago, I had a realization. I realized I was trans.

As with all the other major realizations in my life, my brain has been subconsciously collecting evidence for years, and I had this realization in a single moment. My egg didn’t crack, it exploded and shattered violently. Memories containing evidence started popping up in quick succession, from when I was as young as 3 years old, and I had to process all of them. It has been a major emotional rollercoaster.

I’ve been repressing this for as long as I’ve been alive, so this makes me very anxious, but now that most of it has been processed, and the most important people have been told, I can tell all of you:

Hello, I am Elara, an Autistic, Trans ML.

Thanks to everyone here. You all were a huge part of my realization. Without you, it might’ve happened a lot later or not at all.

    • 🏳️‍⚧️ Elara ☭OPM
      15•1 year ago

      I don’t think the word cracked fully captures the violence and speed with which it shattered into a million pieces. I randomly realized at like 3 AM with no obvious trigger, and then had new memories I didn’t even know existed popping up randomly every minute for several days. You can literally see the effect on my git commit history.