I did for about two years full time. Due to circumstance I’m about to begin again part time and my sleep schedule is already screwed. All the training happens in the daytime too so that sucks. How y’all coping? Staying healthy and doing ok? I’m thinkin about asking my doc if I can try Modafinil whenever it gets started back up but I haven’t researched it enough to know if the benefits outweigh the drawbacks.
I’ve never done coke (never really had the option) but I’d probably try it in the right setting. I had a similar experience with MDMA tho, everyone around me seemed to be having the time of their lives, super open and loving and ecstatic. It felt like a mild kratom high to me, but my medications also probably impacted the experience. Didn’t feel too bad the next day, but it was all just meh. There’s sort of a stigma or pushback that I find kind of understandable to all sorts of illicit drugs among MLs because of their debilitating effects and their historical uses by state departments, but I absolutely adore psychedelics. Mostly just when I’m alone and can think, even though I’ve usually been around people when doing it. I did like 6g psilo once alone and it was an utter nightmare, a nightmare that changed my life in incredible and indescribable ways. At least for a little while. “Ego death” etc etc. I like to use LSD thought spirals to delve into pretty dark systemic issues – stared at a high school once for a while just thinking about how much it looked like a prison and I finally got what that sort of discourse was about. Dialectical materialism also clicked so much more heavily with me whenever I was tripping. When I’m with people they try to keep me from thinking about those things and I try to stay away from them because I don’t want to “kill the vibe”. Which is fine, but the vibe is not my favorite thing about those experiences. DMT was mostly just fun as hell – a waking dream – and I started painting after trying it.
You’ve certainly got me thinking about setting up a meditation sleep ritual before bed, not something I’d considered before but it seems like it could be very useful. I have been meaning to meditate but keep pushing it off and I think incorporating it that way wouldn’t be too jarring. Thanks comrade.
I don’t rate it, i guess it’s what let’s nights carry on longer but in terms of a “high” I didn’t feel it.
Yeah same with MD for me, in uni I was given some before a night out and it was shit and then people go “oh you didn’t have good stuff” and I’m like well there’s the fucking problem. You just dropped a considerable amount of money on this and now you’re saying it’s just a shit bag?
Yeah and that’s fair but as with everything I think sometimes ML can get a little purist about matters without considering that people can make their own decisions. It’s how people make those decisions when educated and in a society free from oppression and poverty that will define our relationship with it, not theory crafting online. Like psychedelics I’m in your camp, some experiences have being god awful and I know to stay away from that going forward but then others have honestly helped me process things healthily or giving me a new perspective on matters I’d never considered before. Would I have had those revelations in a ML society? Maybe but I’m not in one and having those experiences helped me deprogram elements of myself that I couldn’t without opening my mind in ways that I think drugs can help with when done in moderation and taken maturely. Mushrooms was a wild one and not even that intense as you can define the intensity with how much you take.
I guess it’s all about forming a healthy relationship with things vs the historic uses we see but I agree dia mat became so much clearer for me after sitting down and smoking with a ML and discussing things vs soberly “debating” it.
Give it a go! If a little ritual of actions before bed doesn’t help then at the very least you have a cool healthy ritual to do now. It’s not like there’s a downside to trying it. Ima try to and we can feedback how we do!!