If I do nothing:
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the problem will go away on its own
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someone else will deal with the problem
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the problem will get so bad that I will feel the terror of catastrophic failure if I don’t deal with it, at which point my fight or flight instincts will kick in and I will have the motivation to actually deal with it.
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ill admit these comics make me feel like I have adhd. I actually do a lot but the amount of mental effort I have to put into each thing is massive and I have to put myself on super rails. I basically don’t do anything like vacations or planned leasure because prepping for it is just more work and im pretty much constantly tyring to catch up with what I need to do dealing with (usually) the most important things first. I spend ridiculous amounts of time just making sure I pay bills and such.
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Yeah honestly I have a somewhat challenging situation in life so that could be it and honestly how I do things has advantages that I like (passive thought and investigation of things that later bear some fruit in decision making). I view it as im just someone who likes boring safety, security, and consistency over excitement and highs/lows. So im pretty much constantly working to avoid bad times so im constantly working on something and view myself as behind. I have a bill to pay so im behind because its not paid. If I did not do that then im pretty sure I would always be late. ugh. I just paid my property taxes late. 40-50 dollars wasted. Too many distractions.
I just let it fester and fuck everything up :)
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