Yeah honestly I have a somewhat challenging situation in life so that could be it and honestly how I do things has advantages that I like (passive thought and investigation of things that later bear some fruit in decision making). I view it as im just someone who likes boring safety, security, and consistency over excitement and highs/lows. So im pretty much constantly working to avoid bad times so im constantly working on something and view myself as behind. I have a bill to pay so im behind because its not paid. If I did not do that then im pretty sure I would always be late. ugh. I just paid my property taxes late. 40-50 dollars wasted. Too many distractions.