Pretty much the title of the post. I started watching porn at a very young age (12 I think) and stuck with it for 13 years. Without retelling my entire life story, porn is the only sexual outlet I have.
I wanted to quit for a while now due to ethical (I don’t think I have to elaborate how fucked up the porn industry is to anyone here) and psychological reasons but so far it always ends in me quitting for a few days and then returning.
I want to stop, I can’t call myself a communist while engaging with something that is so vile and opposed to communist principles but I don’t know how to change my habits in a way that allows me to permanently quit and satisfy my urges in a different way.
I have this exact problem, too. It started with encountering provocative ads when I was just using my tablet when I was 12, then it devolved into looking up pictures of models, and finally, a porn addiction which led me to a place I really did not like being in.
For a time, I was able to get off of it, but then I relapsed after convincing myself that it was “normal” or whatever, and that as long as I just stuck to more vanilla content or drawings that I was okay (even then, I would still occasionally look at questionable shit).
No matter how much I try to restrain that urge, be it by looking at tamer content or by trying to watch porn less frequently, I always feel like shit when I do it, and more often than not I don’t even feel satisfied— this is probably TMI, but I’ve noticed that I have a much better time using my imagination or just skipping porn altogether.
Anyway, start by avoiding shame— shame only leads you to a cycle of watching porn, beating yourself up over it, then watching it again because you’ve convinced yourself that you’re a bad person and that this is what you just do.
If you should feel anything negative, it should be guilt— acknowledge that it isn’t a healthy or moral habit, and strive to quit it, even if you have to do it gradually and experience setbacks.
Also, ask yourself why you have this habit to begin with— for me, it developed from being sexually repressed, frustrated, and lonely. From there, try to find a way to fulfill that need or want in a healthier, more positive way.
Idk what else to add, as this is a problem I myself am addressing.
Same. So far I have been incapable of finding anything resembling romantic involvement. Main reason for this is some heavy trauma from my highschool years and while I am in therapy because of this it will still be a while before I am healthy or capable of finding someone.