Not right now, as I’m broker than broke. The bureaucratic nightmare of reapplying for federal aid, necessary loans, to schools, the possibility that I’m still not mentally capable enough, not willful enough to overcome my disabilities in order to thrive in a learning environment… Higher education in the U.S. is also just such a racket. International schools still charge absurd prices for foreigners, especially from the U.S., because they know they can. There are so many universities to choose from, some programs deemed more prestigious than others, some degrees that mean everything and some that mean utterly nothing. It’s a chaotic, confusing mess and I’m mortified of the prospect of dealing with it again.
On the other hand, I need a goal. A purpose. Passion. Something to move me forward rather than just being stuck in a dead end job I can barely tolerate just to continue living paycheck to paycheck. When I first tried college, I studied anthropology and I loved it. I just couldn’t keep up with the course work, or the physical labor of getting to class every day (20 minute walk to and from class, had class ~3 times a day, all hours apart). I became an alcoholic and barely made it out alive… by flunking out. I also absolutely despise gen-ed courses like algebra, science, etc. when they don’t specifically pertain to my field of study and it makes it very difficult to stay motivated to not fail out of them.
Idk. I have ideas brewing in my head about what I could do with a degree, specifically an Anthropology-Korean dual major, or anthro major Korean minor. I could write a counter-ethnography dispelling the hegemonic western, liberal orientalism regarding the DPRK from shit like “The Cleanest Race”, with specific interest in DPRKorea’s nuclear program and the way the people view it, especially when it comes to their nuclear power outside of the purview of western mouthpieces, like the nuclear power electrifying their nation. But I’m also a white Amerikan. Do we need more white Amerikans writing ethnographies? Could I accidentally wind up contributing to the orientalist hegemon I despise so much? At a personal level, could I even survive if I pursued this path, or would I simply die a destitute, ridiculed anthropologist?
Just something I’ve been thinking about. I’d like to know comrades’ thoughts.
I present two options for your consideration:-
Provided you meet the entry requirements, enroll at ELAM in Cuba and become a bi-lingual doctor basically for free.
Devote your life to the class struggle, join a local communist party recognised by the Chinese government, learn to speak Mandarin and then apply through your party to study applied Marxism abroad in China through the United Front Department of the Central Committee of the Chinese Communist Party.
Damn, standards for U.S. enrollment are higher for ELAM. I can understand why but it’s still a bummer.
Fr though, both sound like the dream.
Reckon you’d consider giving either a crack? In terms of a life goal or purpose I don’t think you could do much better than healing the sick or fighting for the working class. With regards to the latter, Marxism is a pretty hot degree these days now that Xi Jinping is emphasising ideological piety throughout the party. There are plenty of opportunities to live in the course of the struggle. Increasingly, fighting the good fight doesn’t mean we have to carry a cross on our backs.