“It’s better to hold the “correct” ideal belief(anarchism) than to practice an imperfect/incomplete system that must function in the real world. It’s better to lose and be pure than to win and make mistakes along the way.”

As a former anarchist I can say you hit the nail on the head. I didn’t want to “corrupt” myself. I thought I was righteous but really I was just privileged. Doing an authoritarianism is wrong and I’m all about doing what’s right so obviously then the only option is to talk to people and hope that they eventually see the light.

That mindset quickly changed when I started reading more, hearing out the “tankies” and questioning some of my conditioning. At some point I just realized that this pipedream of a “natural” revolution occurring without the need for violence or suppression was not just incredibly naive, but in a way, cruel as fuck. Every day there is so much suffering in the world, most of which I never have to think about let alone experience. And here I am, declaring that things will surely change at some point, once a spontaneous grassroots revolution happens. Several people just died from starvation or other easily preventable causes just in the time it took me to write this. I doubt they would find any comfort in the dreams of western anarchists.