• JokeDeity@lemm.ee
    link
    fedilink
    English
    arrow-up
    4
    ·
    1 year ago

    This fear has kept me depressed and anxious my whole entire life. 😀 But I’m pretty much at the end of my rope now, so hopefully I can force myself to see a doctor and get some of these addictive pills.

    • SharkEatingBreakfast@sh.itjust.works
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      11
      ·
      1 year ago

      “Oh no, I’m addicted to being able to function!”

      Remember that you should never feel guilty about using meds as they are intended to be used. Dependence ≠ addiction.

      Guilt about that kept me from getting medicated for my own issues, but when I finally found what worked for me, I genuinely wept. “Is this what ‘normal’ people feel like? Able to function? Quiet thoughts? Not overwhelmed by pure, constant anxiety?”

      Does it kinda suck to think that I may have to take it indefinitely? Yeah. Sure. But it’s much better than being stuck in my own head and paralyzed by my own stupid brain.

      Love yourself and do what’s best for you, meds or not.

    • Blapoo
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      5
      ·
      1 year ago

      One thing at a time. I hope you can find some peace. Know that you’re not alone in this wild ride.

    • voxl@sh.itjust.works
      link
      fedilink
      English
      arrow-up
      3
      arrow-down
      10
      ·
      1 year ago

      You do you. I just kicked an 8yr addiction and feel better than ever, because I worked on myself and got my brain to make the happy chems. Being addicted is the worst nightmare I’ve ever been through. It starts with “omg this actually works, I can live again!” And ends with EVERYTHING on pause. I was not a human anymore, just a robot/slave to the drug and society. A perfect little worker. Happy to be free and be a real biological creature again. If I feel bad now, there’s a reason and I go change it, it was a whole lot of work to internalize that realisation.

      But hey, everyone’s different, and using drugs might help you! It just didn’t for me. More power to you.

      • JokeDeity@lemm.ee
        link
        fedilink
        English
        arrow-up
        7
        ·
        1 year ago

        Man I wanted to say this after your first comment, but I’m confident to say it now: FUCK YOU

      • rynzcycle@kbin.social
        link
        fedilink
        arrow-up
        6
        ·
        1 year ago

        Most studies show that SSRIs do work best in conjunction with therapy, like CBT, so you’re not entirely wrong. But the comment “you do you” seems to dismiss that some people have very real biological differences that might make them a long term solution, even with effective lifestyle changes. So I’ll edit based on my experience and understanding.

        You do you what you need to in order to feel healthy and happy (appropriately happy, not all the time happy). Be sure to check in wirh yourself regularly, ask for help where you need it, and know that the peope that (should) matter to you are on your side and hold no judgement however you need to get healthy.

        • voxl@sh.itjust.works
          link
          fedilink
          English
          arrow-up
          1
          arrow-down
          2
          ·
          1 year ago

          Yeah, thanks. I was too lazy and didn’t want to spend too much time. So thanks!

      • PolarisFx@lemmy.dbzer0.com
        link
        fedilink
        English
        arrow-up
        3
        ·
        1 year ago

        I was on Effexor max dose. And yea I feel the robot thing. But they eventually found out what was wrong with me and I’ve been depression free for a year which has been different…

        • voxl@sh.itjust.works
          link
          fedilink
          English
          arrow-up
          1
          arrow-down
          3
          ·
          1 year ago

          Yeah I guess for me it was just a BAD idea to go on drugs. Might be different for other people. Just sharing my experience.

          • PolarisFx@lemmy.dbzer0.com
            link
            fedilink
            English
            arrow-up
            2
            ·
            1 year ago

            We all crave normalcy or something like that, I tried multiple pills in order to feel normal. Zoloft > Wellbutrin > Effexor. I stopped Effexor cold turkey which is apparently very dangerous but had zero effect on me. But I stopped because I had zero feelings, I just existed, it honestly scared me (in my mind because I didn’t feel shit).

            5 years later they realized I was XXY, and my body doesn’t produce testosterone. Turns out hormones are important. Once I started Testosterone, the constant downward pressure I had endured for decades disappeared overnight. Now I have phantom depression, depression is my normal so I have a hard time dealing with the fact that I’m not depressed. But my body will try to make it feel like I’m depressed. It is weird and I don’t have the words to describe it, I thought being depression free would mean happy but instead it’s this weirdness…

      • DessertStorms@kbin.social
        link
        fedilink
        arrow-up
        5
        arrow-down
        3
        ·
        1 year ago

        got my brain to make the happy chems

        That’s not how neurology or mental illness work, but you do you I guess…

        • voxl@sh.itjust.works
          link
          fedilink
          English
          arrow-up
          2
          arrow-down
          3
          ·
          1 year ago

          Just my personal experience. Everyone’s different. But for me, drugs were a bad idea, and I’m kinda mad that it was so easy to get on them.