Most writers or artists of any kind are not as cool as you want them to be. H.P. was essentially a nerdy upper class dandy. He was horribly sheltered and coddled all his life by his mom and her sisters. He’d probably faint if he had to go out in the rain without an umbrella.

I enjoyed his writing but you have to separate the art from the artist. Just like not all action heros are badasses, they just look like that on film.