Im schizophrenic, and I feel like Im getting unstable ( Im not in any immediate danger). Im seeing my doctor on Tuesday and weighing my options. I have problems—some real and probably some imagined.
I would consider myself usually stable and functioning but im aware things can get really bad.
I had some really fucking bad phases in the past.
I wish I could just tough it out, but I can see how my mental state is slowly weakening, so I feel like I need to reach out.
I hope this type of thread is allowed here 
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We tend to defer to material reality around these here parts.
Not particularly helpful I think in this context.
While I have experienced auditory and visual hallucinations in the past, my main problem by far is paranoia and the anxiety and dread that come with it.