When you’re homeless, having a working vehicle is like being our equivalent of like, middle class or something. You have mobility. You have some semblance of privacy and personal space. You have a relatively secure place to stash your belongings, a barrier between yourself and the elements, and a place where you can sleep and not have your photo posted on NextDoor.

I had the opportunity to buy a really nice van this summer and I fucking blew it. It feels like that was my last chance, and I don’t think that’s exactly fair.

Finally accomplishing my dream of buying a van or something will literally save my life, and that isn’t hyperbole. I am so fucking depressed. I have all but given up on life. Since July of last year I’ve probably “lost everything” 3-4 times, by my own lack of give-a-fuck. I’ve had to reapply for food stamps like 2-3 times because I just don’t care enough to pick up my mail and fill out the thing you have to do every 6 months. I go weeks without brushing my teeth or changing my socks because I’m just a stupid fucking failure anyways.

This would be the first time in my life I’ve ever accomplished anything. I would have something I’m excited about having, that would give me a reason to do shit I’ve been putting off forever, like getting my ID replaced. It’s weird imagining myself doing something “grown up” like going to the DMV to register a car; I’ve always seen myself as “the child in the room,” at 32.

And there’s a more practical concern here, in that every fucking winter here, it’s mostly tolerable but there will always be a horrible blizzard that lasts a week or two. Last year and the year before people helped me out with getting a motel room, but I don’t think that’s going to happen this year. So I have like a month and a half at the least.

Decent cars/vans on Craigslist and Marketplace can be found somewhere north of $1K. The van I almost bought was $1,700 (and it was really nice, too). If I raise $2K that will be bomb and I’ll put whatever I have left over into my savings, but I’ll start looking around online when I hit like $1K, and keep going as needed ($1K is like the bare minimum for something that isn’t a piece of shit). Idk.

And until I buy the fucker all the proceeds from this are going in my savings. I won’t even order DoorDash once.

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