My family was mainly hurt that I hadn’t come out sooner, but like… that was for a reason. They weren’t the best on lgbtq+ stuff.

If you wanna be trans, you are. Don’t sweat over detransitioning. I think we pretty much all have had the same worries and anxieties as you - youre in very good company, even though it might feel pretty overwhelming. Also, being cis+ and detransing isn’t the end of the world anyway - cis+ people are cool, cis+ as in theyve actually grappled with gender as their identity rather than just vibe with what the doctors and parents picked. I have OCD as well, so I get the obsessive thoughts - mine are way more boring like “did you lock the door, did you turn off the stove, did you quadruple check that med, etc”.

I said it before, but I remember thinking “well even if I detransition Ill be thankful I have boobs from now on” lol