I’m five-ish years in, and while I occasionally do topical T-gel application to the gonads to help augment function, i mostly just do E+P and no AA, my T is more or less suppressed (to the degree my hormone doc wants to titrate doses to get it up

I’ve found that, w/r/t sex drive, i had three phases: the first phase was total sex drive loss. I spent Three-six months more or less with zero desire, zero horny, and no inclination towards sexual activity. About six months in things came roaring back, but were different in nebulous ways. As the years went on, from about 6 mo-year 2.5 - my sexual preferences began to shift - i more or less lost all masculine attraction for example, and the things that turned me on changed from visual and tactile to… almost conceptual? like before hormones, something like, a partner being sexy, or seeing some kind of sexual content would just cause like, linear arousal. These days, I barely can stand porn, and arousal comes from the interaction of like, emotional space, personal comfort and sense of safety, my attraction to a partner, real or imagined, and my ability to generate experiences I find erotic - it’s like a 2D->3D->5D jump for me, and I still don’t fully understand it, except i think boys are icky and that’s about the only certainty about the whole thing

my sexuality has become this really interesting thing that’s hard to understand, and i’m finally starting to grok it, but the old ways are dead dead deaddddd