nothings happened yet wtf! where’s my instantaneous magical girl transformation?

seriously tho, i expected some mental change based on how ppl describe the euphoria of being on E, but ig that takes time just like the physical changes.

i can wait tho, i was so indescribably happy last night after injecting. i was tearing up and cuddling with my gf and had amazing sleep. it feels like a new chapter of my life that im more optimistic and joyful for than ive ever been! been waiting almost two years for this moment 🥹

thank you hexbear! i dont know how much longer it would have taken for me to discover my transness if i wasn’t a part of the site with the best trans community on the internet!

and im moving to a medium sized city in a month so ill be in a good place to transition compared to the rural area where i live

i am DIY and made four vials a couple weeks ago. then yesterday i sterilized them at 130C for 30 minutes, pretty easy in oil if you have a digital probe thermometer (i think ppl call them candy thermometers).

my regimen is 11 mg estradiol enanthate stabbed into my butt every 14 days. im planning on getting a blood test in 3 months and adjusting. p sure ill have to up the dose bc im 6’ and 200 lbs. prob gonna try to add progesterone in 6 months to a year even tho the studies on that haven’t been too promising in it helping transfems. prog can actually be pretty cheap if you DIY and mix a powder with coconut/cocoa oil and take it rectally.

      • queermunist she/her
        4·
        5 months ago

        I’m starting to suspect it’s because I was on a very high dose of Venlafaxine, which flattened my emotions out a lot. The prog was what finally broke through the fog.

        • Findom_DeLuise [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
          2·
          5 months ago

          Yeah, that might do it. And full disclosure, I didn’t really feel it when I first started off, since I was on fairly low-dose transdermal patches. After about a month of those damned things falling off, I switched to gel and hooooly shit that was intense. I spent those first few days pretty loopy, to say the least. Happy, but loopy – apparently at one point on the first day, I almost blundered into a moving car while walking across a parking lot. I think TC69 described hir first experience on E as feeling a little like being high, and that definitely tracks for me – as I am fond of saying, gender euphoria just feels like regular euphoria.