Pride’s over everyone! It’s now illegal to be gay again.
It’s fucked up my gf has a stuffed dog plushie she cuddles with in my stead.
Practically cheating tbh.
Epilating some places is much more painful than others
Meep meep I used to post here like 1-2yrs ago and now i am back.
Happy to report my tits have DOUBLED IN SIZE since the last time I posted. Progesterone rips, one of the greatest drugs of all time, highly recommend
Going back to a family gathering in august. Going between cancelling, boymoding, or saying fuck it and wearing what I want. Only thing is that it’s gonna be extremely uncomfortable no matter what.
I’ve got to stop preemptively assuming that my fatigue issues are going away when I’ve just been way less active lol. Today I weeded the garden and then crashed for the whole day.
It is almost impossible to find a place to live as a transwoman around here it seems. I write to the places that explicity advertise themselves as “LGBTQ+ friendly” and get consitently ghosted.
Before, when I was an Egg, I would always get replies, my message is the same,excwpt for half a paragraph about me being trans, that I added.
Maybe I will have to boymode to avoid homlessnes.
had a dentist appointment today and at the last moment i just said “naw” and stayed home because i couldn’t deal with the possibility of them looking at my chart and saying “estradiol and spironolactone?”. i don’t even know if they have access to a chart like that but fuck it, i can’t deal with that shit
I really want to call someone cute right now but I feel like I shouldn’t, so come here all you cuties (if you want to be called cute)
The trans group chat im in is too lib :(
Just had a doctor’s appointment, turns out my suspicion was right and my T levels were a little high. Got my spiro dose upped and hopefully that’ll help fix it.
shout-out to postal workers for delivering my E, i fuck with that heavy
ok for the people that have pressed the button to become my wife, you may or may not get a random notification to fight a super villain after I scream “WIVES ASSEMBLE”… just letting you know
dating, negativity, sadposting
I’m just so sad right now. I’m listening to someone talking about their experience dating 30+ and I can’t guys. A lot of people have already found someone at my age, and I have no path towards meeting people. And I’m not who I want to be yet. So what do I do? I could try and find someone now (really in the next few years) but are they going to want to stay with me while I transition/get more femme? What are the odds I find someone who’s bi, and likes me both ways. Doesn’t seem very fucking likely. Or I wait even fucking longer, with more and more people getting matched and the ever shrinking pool of people who would date me, and I would also want to date. Then just enter the dating pool completely fresh, trying to date another woman as someone who has lived as a guy her whole life. That joke about lesbians moving things along really fast makes me nervous too, I don’t want to rush right in to something and I worry that will be seen as me being noncommittal/flaky/like I don’t really like her.
How do I even meet people? I’m so awkward and hate the idea of just approaching someone.
NEGATIVITY ABOUT BEING TRANS (WORSE THEN NORMAL), genitals
Let’s be real, I’m not dateable now and even after I transition (if I do) I won’t really be. Why would someone want to date this huge gross person with all this baggage and straight guy issues when you could just as easily date any of the other wonderful women. Some stuff I don’t even want to change. I don’t want bottom surgery. Why would you date a woman with a penis if you could find one without? Why would someone date this ugly, brainwormed pretender instead of someone else. They wouldn’t.
And I haven’t even touched on my issues surrounding sex but its bad. I’m fucked.
doomer/si thoughts
I can’t live the next fucking 50 years of my life alone. I can’t. I’ll fucking kill myself. I am so deeply lonely and I can’t stay like this. I feel like all of my issues have condemned me to this. What a fucking hallow and pathetic life. Is this all there is?
I look forward to the day I can throw out my safety razor.
So apparently I’m what’s called a vocal underdoer. I’ve used my voice very little in recent years, which has caused it to get much weaker. Now I need to undo the damage if I want to reach my voice goals.
Negativity
As if regular voice training wasn’t hard enough already, now I have to do several voice strengthening excercies on top of that. It’s all so overwhelming, wish I could just give up and become mute
