I do have major depression. Meds didn’t do anything for me (tried 12~), tried a few intervention treatments as well without much luck. ECT (Electro Convulsive Therapy) helped I feel like but I couldn’t get another round of it. If meds had done anything for me before I’d probably give them another go. I probably “should” give them another try but its a lot of effort and conversations and idrk if I’ll see a benefit. I see a therapist but he’s not really helpful. Wish I saw someone else, after the move I would definitely like to. But I want to see an lgbt therapist and idk how to get that to work with my parents/their insurance.

Best I can do is a 37mm signalling launcher

Wish I had a definite reason for this. Last few days I knew it was my voice me but now idk. Want to talk with/message one of my irl peeps but what can I even say if I don’t know what’s wrong. Not like they understand voice dysphoria anyway I guess…

I honestly don’t think its fixable or bearable

If we’re going to hate cryptobros for being greedy, gambling capitalists I don’t see how this harem wouldn’t be one of the worst offenders

I took the last week and a half of 2025 off and tbh I’ve only felt worse since going back (compared to before my break). I wish I could just quit but obviously at some point I’m going to need to fucking work to make money so I should probably force myself to do like half the hours now.

Woke up from my nap and I feel worse lmao, so fucking irritable. I feel awful. Like hell. At least I’m not going to have to teach any stupid fucking classes.

It does, that’s very nice of you.

I really don’t see how I seem dedicated. I have no motivation, no drive. If I did I’d have done some of these things.

And unfortunately I have to be at work this weekend or I’d ditch. Got plenty of sleep wednesday night and have been napping most days so I don’t think I’m that tired, sleep wise.

You’re thinking of Razzlekhan/Heather Morgan who is a rapper and stole billions in a separate crypto incident. Caroline is the sultry wood nymph. Do try to keep up, this is the future of finance.

2025 was a la nina year and the 3rd warmest in the last like 100k years but go off

Nothing really works to alleviate my pain. I feel disconnected from everyone. This problem has only continued to get worse.

My actual life outside being trans is going terrible. No degree, no cert worth anything, still not enrolled. Can’t even drive. No real friends my age. A smattering of trusted adults. There are weekly things that haven’t been done in months. Daily things that get done a couple times a week. Room is a disaster. No motivation to do anything. I’m barely able to keep up with my limited work schedule. No real hope of being able to leave my transphobic parent’s house. No real hope of having a good job. Of a partner. Of being happy, or content, or anything of the sort.

My life is just misery. Has been.

I think my nervous system has just been fried at this point. What years upon years of suffering does to a person I guess. No fucking shit my brain can’t work right anymore.

Do you know where all of this started? Where my life, my body, even my brain started to collapse in on nothing but suffering?

I will genuinely probably cry in front of all the parents and my co workers if this happens

Holy shit fuck being trans

I’m in charge this weekend and the person who does the singing and shit with the little kids might be bailing on me and I’m going to kill one of us

but I didnt even know when I booked it that it was Valentines

Girl forgot the 14th of February

Oooh, thank you. Worse then I thought.

Can someone explain this to me, I’ve seen two of these reposted here. “doing nothing for the USA in Afghanistan”… why are they posting this, what is it supposed to mean?

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