I don’t know what I’m doing, I hate my job I hate my life, all I do is work, get stoned, sleep wake up repeat, I yearn for a passionate community someone that cares as much as me but isn’t tied to a wage or a visa to enact change.
I want to run away but I’m scared I’ll end up dissapointing eceryone.
KMS seems like the easy way out but I can’t allow myself to do that people depend on me.
Why am I so weak? What should I do? Why am I here? Will I ever find love? Is it all a lie?
I’ve been there friend, and I’ve had being okay far away from myself for a long time. To answer your questions.
No, you’re not weak. Feeling weak is something everyone feels sometimes. It’s okay.
Maybe you could reach out for help. Just because you’re paying a professional to provide counseling or medical treatment doesn’t invalidate the work that they and you are putting into yourself. I can’t say what course is right for you.
I wish I knew why any of us were here, but alas that’s one of life’s biggest mysteries. The best answer I’ve ever heard was “to embrace the absurdity of your own existence, and experience it.”
Keep looking, it takes time.
Yes, but not the way I think you are thinking. The lie is the expectation that we should have all the things that make us happy now and all we need to do is follow the path set up for us. That’s pure bullshit we’re fed from the cradle to the grave. Following someone else’s path means they’ve already used up the good stuff. Step off the path a little every now and again.
Thanks Zero I needed that.