I’m open to the idea. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts and have for a long time now. Life can good sometimes. I like to hang out with my family, I have good friends and there are things I look forward to like birthdays, Christmas and Halloween but overall I’ve experience more suffering than pleasure.

I don’t feel like I’m made for this would. My whole life I’ve dealed with intellectual disabilities and personality disorders. I struggle with maths and English and my working memory isn’t that good. I’m slower at learning things then others and I have to put more effort into learning things that other people learn easily. Even though I tried I was the worst kid in my school and all the other kids including my siblings who make fun of me. Jobs are hard to find and keep. There aren’t much opportunities open to me as someone with a dogshit education. I have personality disorders which are not easy to live with. I wish I could just be like everyone else. I feel happy sometimes like when I’m high or with my friends/family but if I had the choice I wouldn’t have been born. I’m definitely not going to have kids for this reason. Not only can I not take care of them but I just don’t want them go through what I’ve gone through.