I’m open to the idea. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts and have for a long time now. Life can good sometimes. I like to hang out with my family, I have good friends and there are things I look forward to like birthdays, Christmas and Halloween but overall I’ve experience more suffering than pleasure.

I don’t feel like I’m made for this would. My whole life I’ve dealed with intellectual disabilities and personality disorders. I struggle with maths and English and my working memory isn’t that good. I’m slower at learning things then others and I have to put more effort into learning things that other people learn easily. Even though I tried I was the worst kid in my school and all the other kids including my siblings who make fun of me. Jobs are hard to find and keep. There aren’t much opportunities open to me as someone with a dogshit education. I have personality disorders which are not easy to live with. I wish I could just be like everyone else. I feel happy sometimes like when I’m high or with my friends/family but if I had the choice I wouldn’t have been born. I’m definitely not going to have kids for this reason. Not only can I not take care of them but I just don’t want them go through what I’ve gone through.

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It not. When your writing things you have more time to think about what your saying and you can check it over to see if you’ve made any mistakes. This is why I prefer writing over talking.

I know about that guy. He’s a R*pist? Explains why is disappeared all the sudden

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I didn’t hear about it. Who was the dictator? Was it Roman Polanski? Bryan Singer?

DVDs for sure. I have good memories of going to the local store and me and siblings arguing about what DVD we would get. These were some good times. However, those ads at the beginning they make you watch that you can’t skip get on my nerves and they scratch really easily. Streaming is the way to go

I wouldn’t even compare him to political streamers at least with political streamers like Vaush, BadEmpanada and Hasan they add something to the experience. They don’t just watch random content on they find on YouTube. There’s a trend now of them watching Master Chef. That TV show from like 2004. Just regular network TV.

Also, did the guy who made that documentary really a R*pist? How do you know?

Is that even a real thing?

Never watch his stuff. He’s content is the most brain dead dribble you’ve ever seen. He’s like some the white version of jinx. When I say he does reaction content I mean that in the most literal sense. He literally sits there and watches things and adds absolutely nothing. If you watch xQc you may as well go to the local movie theatre and look at the guy next to you. It has the same entertainment value and at least then you get to socialise.

Well, no one does date grape for fun. No one’s addicted to date grape and it doesn’t matter if you have the money as long as you have the taste for it. I started doing drugs at age 14. Things like weed, benadryl, LSD, glue and shooms. In the long run I shouldn’t have done it but I will admit I do have some nostalgia for doing them with my old friends.

Drugs at any age. Sure you can get clean but it takes a very pacific type of person to do that and there are more people who have failed then ones who have succeeded. I made the mistake of using drugs at a young age and it has destroyed my life beyond repair. If there are any young people reading this just remember it’s not worth it. Trust me nobody hates drugs more then drugheads.

I suppose it’s not just letting others have attention but it’s not competing with others for attention. @Misspelledusernme@lemmy.world said something about people with NPD being attracted to the entertainment industry and I can see why. You get the attention you want and your already used to constantly competing for it.

I never said it was. I guess it’s a part of other peoples nature. I can like other people but emphasizing with others just doesn’t come naturally to me.

Yeah but I don’t think your allowed to say it on here and I’m not risking my account

I know what you mean. I heard about this one guy Edward Surratt. He’s pretty mysterious. He was only serving time for grape but admitted in 2021 to murdering multiple people in 70s. Oddly enough I haven’t heard much about this guy. I would have thought this have would got more attention.

https://youtu.be/uUgXr6nVqB8

Yes I did. It wasn’t just my parents I got bullied a lot by other kids and my siblings and I didn’t do that well in school either.

Durst was convicted of one murder and died in prison in 2020

I don’t mean killers who haven’t been caught yet I mean people who were convinced of there crimes and later released.