Much like the hypervigilance that’s common to trauma survivors with PTSD, masking is a reflex that comes out most intensely when we experience uncertainty or social threat. And recognizing oneself as a disabled person certainly doesn’t make the world seem any less confusing or threatening. However, accepting ourselves as Autistic does free many of us (perhaps for the first time) to question whether it’s fair that we be expected to live in such a concealed, apologetic way.

It means reexamining the stereotypes about Autistics (and other disabled people) we’ve been exposed to via media, education, and formative experiences in our youth. It requires we question society’s most deeply cherished values, and notice where there are gaps between what we’ve been told we should be, and how we’d actually like to live.

This part feels like a weekly struggle, because I realized I am too scared to tell people that I’m Autistic after experiencing negative reactions and responses to my already-labeled “weird” behavior. I feel like 3 people most of the time, and I’m not sure how to bring those 3 me’s into something cohesive that I can be proud of.

I think some weird things I’d like to put out there that I can’t really share with others IRL is that I love making horrible song parodies and I’ve written several books and short stories that I’ve never shared with anyone.

My favorite Pokémon games were Diamond and Sapphire. Camerupt and Drifblim were my favorites. Cosplaying at a con was the most fun I’ve had interacting with others. I sometimes miss not knowing I’m autistic…but I’m working on it.

X-files

I’d submit this for an emote, but there’s only a couple hours left.

I saw them live 3 times, legendary band

Open the PC, Hal!

My aunt called her IUD her ‘lil egg beater’ so this tracks.

I thought Hassan said Luffy was a terrorist

Thigh highs for everyone

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I just want a picture of a got dang beanis

Glad you had a good time!!

I also despise theme parks, sorry that’s the chosen activity your family chose. I always offered to sit with everyone’s stuff so I wouldn’t have to go on rides and give me an excuse to sit on a bench or something nearby. I also bring a small stim toy everywhere now to help with stress, and ear plugs or wireless headphones have been a godsend in public spaces since they’re low profile and can easily be kept in a pocket. Stay hydrated out there comrade, hopefully it won’t be too crazy.

Why were you outside my window again

Thank you

Thank you, I’ve worked in offices a lot and it’s always been as you mentioned, hellish and demoralizing. Haven’t been in an office since before covid either and it feels like people are even worse than before. I’ll try some of the things your and others mentioned, see if I can’t give myself some relief and support.

Thank you, I’ll start keeping track of things starting today. I appreciate the response