What a beautiful day. Finally feel like spring is here properly.

Felt really tired today for no real reason. So of course, now I am not sleepy at all.

I’ve never staked zucchinis, the grow in a sprawling style. From memory I think the stalks might be a bit too fragile for forcing upright? I’m no expert though, just what’s worked for me.

I love it when I’m in country areas with less light pollution. So many stars!

I read Doppelgänger by Naomi Klein earlier this year. She proposes that conspiracy theorist right-wingers feelings that the system has failed them has some merit, but that they’ve completely misunderstood who that is. It’s not vaccine scientists or diverse communities. It’s social media magnates, exploitative capitalism and corrupt politics. I guess when you’re full of prejudice you have to do lots of mental gymnastics to make your world view fit your bigotry.

You officially exist! Woohoo!

It’s true that some people have an easier path. It starts right at birth, eg born to good family, no serious health issues, no disabilities, born into a safe neighbourhood, opportunities at a good school, etc. Or unlucky to get all the opposites. And then stuff happens in life, a lot of which we can’t control. The good and bad stuff is not evenly distributed. Some people get lots of good, some lots of bad, most of us get some of each. All you can do is make the best of the cards you’re dealt. That’s it. It’s normal to be more cautious and pessimistic if you’ve had a lot of bad stuff happen. The trick is to find ways to move forward, and say to yourself each day is a new day.

If you can find the brand Nanoblocks, they are pretty cool. Mini lego type pieces that fit together properly.

It would take a certain personality to believe that a random international internet stranger who is much younger, very good looking, flirty and generous with flattery would develop an instant adoration and sexual attraction for someone they’ve never met.

I think there might be a subgroup of victims who fall for it out of loneliness, even if they may suspect something is not right they continue because it’s respite from their loneliness. But sounds like your neighbour is not in that group, and just has a lot of ego.

Of course they did. It is universal that in every workplace people exist who just turn up and tick boxes, they have no care of their impacts on anyone else - clients, coworkers, the public etc. Zero f’s and zero diligence. Sometimes their mundane box ticking is harmless, but in some positions it can be very destructive. I don’t even know how a business could ban the use of AI. Even if block in company IT, someone could just do it on their phone and copy paste. The ban would only be useful if the person was discovered, and then probably have to go through the warning process. But damage already done. So unfortunately I think we are stuck with it forever from now on. Enshitification of the world continues.

The spelling bee show on abc has the potential to be entertaining, however, the host Guy Montgomery is exceptionally creepy to me. There’s something about his voice and mannerisms that gives me uncanny valley murderous vibes. I am probably alone in this but feel better now that it’s off my chest.

You are a good person to try find the owner.

I understand. My what if machine only spirals in one direction, negativity. For positives it’s very conservative. For me the most effective way to get past it is to tell myself so what. If things get bad, well they get bad. I’ll accept it. I’ll do what I can to make sensible decisions and deal with what ever happens. It brings some relief to give your self acceptance/permission to just do what you can, and whatever will be, will be.

Mostly when I’m on my own I like to enjoy the quiet that doesn’t exist when my partner is around. But sometimes I like to listen to audiobooks or music when I’m doing house tasks to make it less boring.

What kind of bread was the bun? Brioche buns can be fragile and tear easy. Plain bread roll is sturdier. You could also start the layers with something non-juicy first, like lettuce leaf or cheese.

I think there is less vaping since the bans. I don’t notice clouds of fruit flavoured smoke wafting around as much as I used to. I guess the ban is working? I had just assumed the illegal supply would fill the gap.

Tomorrow is a new day. Survival is winning, even if it’s tough.

Ugh, sounds like a thoroughly shit person. May your paths never cross again. Sorry this happened to you.

Washing done but I need to tidy, vacuum and some life admin and am procrastinating.

Person on public transport was playing music on phone at full blast. Then looked up and started loudly yelling at passengers. Luckily got off after a few stops. I’m used to occasionally seeing this kind of thing, but today I wondered, does the mentally ill person know they are mentally ill? Are they aware they are frightening others, including kids. What are they feeling when they do these things? I guess whatever is in their heads is logical. I hope to never experience it.