Up and down. Anxiety, at least one auto immune disorder (likely another one or two since I have like no energy fairly often), no job (see: anxiety), no friends (see: everything else), and when I stop and let the thoughts start up or if something really sets me back I spiral into a depressive hole. All and all it’s okay right now. Everything sucks but I’m making the best of it and most days are more middle ground than anything. Thankfully I live with my mom and she is supportive of me and just wants to help me find happiness (she sees it as repaying a shitty childhood). I try to not abuse her generosity so I cook for her and help her with stuff.

Last year I suffered a lot of social loss and had become extremely isolated due to it. Over the last year I’ve been trying to do more of me and found a lot more good in my life while doing that. I’m still extremely isolated outside of interacting with my mom but it doesn’t bother me like it once did. So now I do the things I want to do when I want to do them and not waste time and/or energy looking for friends, groups, etc (especially when they’ll ditch me later and destroy my life in the process, this has happened with every friend/group my entire 40 years of living).

Basically I’m doing me and it’s been really nice. I’m getting back into Warhammer 40,000 (40k), enjoying my time in World of Warcraft, and all around much happier while doing many of my previous activities like watching anime.

Seeing it again yeah lol

For me a lot of meltdowns feel like spiraling. Unable to communicate how I feel, feeling alone/separated, racing thoughts that run the gamete from anxious to depressing. Typically I want to reach out and connect to someone but I can’t and that makes it worse somehow. It’s scary to deal with especially as a lot of it feels so irrational yet it has a real impact.

I’m about a year in on the coughs. Rarely I’ll have days without it, but yeah. Assume it’s long covid but no real way to prove it other than that I’m a shut in who doesn’t smoke or anything. Get my shots and all but it only takes one time. Be safe out there.

Always blows my mind that people act like covid is no big deal. Still masking in public, doing everything I can to avoid catching it. Caught it after 3 years when my mom brought it into the home. Didn’t realize I had it till the long covid symptom hit: I can’t eat without having to cough. That’s the best way I can describe it. It’s annoying on the best days and causes vomiting on the worst (the amount of coughing causes the vomiting).

Fuck covid and all of the people acting like it’s no big deal. Normal is never coming back for me. I’m just another person fallen through the cracks of a life heavily impacted by covid (and the shit ass US healthcare system to various degrees).

Oshi no Ko S2 has been satisfying so far. This has been a really bleh season of anime overall for me. Heavy fan service and/or a step away from outright hentai will keep me from watching something and this summer has felt like a lot of fetishy stuff. And since most shows revolve around teens I just can’t watch that stuff.

Luckily haven’t had it on the top of the foot, but I’ve banged the bottom of my foot on stuff to try to itch it. Deep in the foot itch and unfortunately the stuff I do never helps for very long.

I get this, but in my feet. Just have to rub the bottom of my foot on something and hope for the best. Suuuuucks.

He’s a fine kicker, but an absolute chud and I hate they gave him all that money.

Always over explain. Then apologize for over explaining. Have to give contest to everything so the explanation makes more sense.

Nice debunked conspiracy theories pushed by the GOP to vilify the ‘other’. I’d say try harder but you’re clearly a tool of the fascists.

Yes! Educating people on the value of Blue Jays and trying to dispell the myths about them is important. Know my mom constantly is telling coworkers and others about how the Blue Jays get a bad rap. The ones around us have a mile plus wide communication network that gets the word out about predators and food being available. Kind of cool to hear them if you’re on a walk and then see the hawk they’re chasing/warning about.

No experience with that book, but a lot of literature has autistim coded characters. Lot, well sort of, debate in the Warhammer 40k communities about a fair number of autism coded characters there. I can’t remember who all they’ve said since I avoid a lot of the conversations but if I remember right a fair number of Space Marines, and their ‘traitor’ brethren are ‘autistic’.

This sentiment always makes me laugh. We have a large family or three that live in the area and hang out on our feeder and water. They get pushed around by the morning doves, woodpeckers and sparrows. Cardinals and house finches spaz out on their own and fly off.

Reanimation is soooo good. Still have my original copy of Hybrid Theory and it’s great, but the edits on Reanimation just work really well. Meteora is good though their constant experimentation can make some stinkers.

I loved the campaign and had a lot of fun initially post campaign. But with more and more of the content locked behind ‘having a group’ I’ve found myself playing less and less. The pinnacle grind has been painful so far, especially as stuff will drop at a point that’s useful, other times the same content will drop it lower, and even other times the same content won’t drop anything. It’s just all putting me off. Especially the insane damage that’s going out now. Dying 40 times in a match made thing because the enemies one shot is boring.

More like slowly moved off stage while his head was fully exposed so he could do his sieg heil fist pump combo.

We’re definitely fucked. The media has done a bang up job of protecting Trump while pushing fascist talking points to make Biden look bad. Dems don’t have a candidate that would rally the base. Maybe Newsom but I doubt it. Especially this late.

As someone who has matched this description, still do but in different ways, forcing your idea of ‘normal’ on them isn’t going to help them. It’s more to make yourself feel better.

Life sucks. It’s not your choice how they cope with the suck. Also that you think they’ll just be able to start going on dates or whatever is laughable to me. But that’s me. I empathize with your roommate in so many ways and fully hope they pack their stuff and leave instead of putting up with your ‘good intentions’.