That’s just horrible. And you’re right, most people today have little empathy for anyone else. But it’s terrible when you’re own family is among those without the intelligence and innate goodness to care about you as a human being. Your sexuality is just a preference, not a definition of everything you are. I’m gay myself and was always bullied in school (long before I was gay or anything else) and have suffered my fair share of slings and arrows.
But I never ever felt bad about being gay - it’s a gift and a blessing, and my family at least were supportive - or maybe just well-educated enough to know that someone’s sexuality is not anyone else’s business to worry over.
If you’re tired all the time, that’s one of the big red flags for major depression. And it sounds like you’re doing everything to make it worse. Why seek out people who hate you - they’re gonna be around no matter what. What you really need is to seek out people like you who are encouraging and supportive. And you need to god-damn well wake and stop being a jerk to yourself.
Sorry but it has to be said. You have to let yourself learn how to be happy. Being gay is not only NOT some kind of punishment, it is most definitely NOT anything to feel guilty about. In fact, I think of it as a superpower, and it is one reason I wake up smiling every day.
I haven’t had the same setbacks you’ve had, but I’ve been through major bipolar episodes, (unrelated to sexuality), and I know how tough it can be to let those inner judges go, but you have to do it to improve your life. You have to fire those assholes and kick them out to the curb.
That’s just horrible. And you’re right, most people today have little empathy for anyone else. But it’s terrible when you’re own family is among those without the intelligence and innate goodness to care about you as a human being. Your sexuality is just a preference, not a definition of everything you are. I’m gay myself and was always bullied in school (long before I was gay or anything else) and have suffered my fair share of slings and arrows.
But I never ever felt bad about being gay - it’s a gift and a blessing, and my family at least were supportive - or maybe just well-educated enough to know that someone’s sexuality is not anyone else’s business to worry over.
If you’re tired all the time, that’s one of the big red flags for major depression. And it sounds like you’re doing everything to make it worse. Why seek out people who hate you - they’re gonna be around no matter what. What you really need is to seek out people like you who are encouraging and supportive. And you need to god-damn well wake and stop being a jerk to yourself.
Sorry but it has to be said. You have to let yourself learn how to be happy. Being gay is not only NOT some kind of punishment, it is most definitely NOT anything to feel guilty about. In fact, I think of it as a superpower, and it is one reason I wake up smiling every day.
I haven’t had the same setbacks you’ve had, but I’ve been through major bipolar episodes, (unrelated to sexuality), and I know how tough it can be to let those inner judges go, but you have to do it to improve your life. You have to fire those assholes and kick them out to the curb.