I mean downvote me if you want but, if you’re suicidal it’s prob like winning the lottery. No work on your part to make sure the deed completes successfully instead of leaving yourself alive and in a ton of physical pain, no bailing out at the last second because of some bullshit excuse or unforseen flaw in the plan, no having to write some pathetic fucking letter apologizing to your family, you basically got what you want completely guilt free because all the blame goes on the cop. You get to abandon your existence but now someone else handles all the details and you have a legit excuse to not be the one to traumatize your family and your death actually may do good by perhaps stopping unhinged cops that do otherwise shitty things.