every day of my life is pain i suck at being social i will say one thing and mean another. i made some friends only to have them taken away from me due the rule saying all teachers are monsters my parents drugged i thought i could trust them i am still living with them when will this pain will only end when i kill myself. then i will be in blissful non-existence i also spend my of most days depressed because of all this
Please speak with someone who has the proper resources to offer you such as the suicide prevention hotline. Their number is 1-800-273-8255. Life is filled with suffering, there is no getting around that. But you can find a way to overcome it and focus on the enjoyable aspects with help.