I don’t know what the real meaning is but since the character is wearing a balaclava I figured it meant something along the lines of: ‘I dont want to be involved in this shit but I have to’

Which is how I feel a lot of days. I don’t want to do all the shit I do with the protests and the occupying of things and the fighting and the enormous amount of effort I put into party work but I have to.

As soon as this fight for communism is over you can catch me gardening.