Today. No. Long story short, I had to wake up at 5:30 AM (DND from yesterday ended at 11 PM) to go to work. Horrible. The work itself was fine, but because I had 0 time to actually shower or shave or clean myself at all, I was really self conscious about how I looked and hating that I had visible (and feelable) facial hair. UGH SNOMUBXNTHEUB XNTHEBUXNTHBEUXTHNBEUX I HATED EVERY FUCKING SECOND OF IT
And between then and the start of class, I had to quickly cram in some reading and homework and such, as well as a shower (and a [REDACTED] to get that out of my system).
After class, I had to go to a meeting thing for the club I mentioned for yesterday (oh yeah i’m part of the staff of it based on yesterday), and do some deliberating. I also hung out with some friends and my partner in there which was nice and helped a bit :))
ALSO I decided to wear a pretty dress today to get out the weird awful feelings from this morning. It helped a lot :D
And now for a little while I’ve been playing Civ to get the last of the bad vibes out. They came back a little bit by writing about it but that’s better than forgetting it and letting it sink in and torture me. Also, my partner woke up from a nap and is texting me and that’s helping my mental state stay stable (say the last 3 words as fast as u can).
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