Ugh, I’m not sure I can even stomache talking about today. So much went awry, and so much went “fine”. Things don’t always turn out how you want them to, but somehow, something else can get better along the way. Or at least, be the one good thing in a pile of crud. And you hold on to it until it balances out your soul, like holding on to an ice pack until it reaches room temperature.

I panicked a lot about if I did the right things, both last night and this morning, and even with out a clear answer, letting it eat me up inside aren’t gonna get me anywhere. All I’d like to say is that I talked it out with the people I trust, and I went from panicking to numbness to joy. I took it easy today, and my sanity depended on it.

Are a lot of questions still unanswered? Yeah. Am I in a rush to find the answer? Not really; I got in a rush out of some vain prospect of treading unexplored territory, and while I still wanna do that, because I’m a young and spry girl like any other, I get the importance now of taking my time with it. As much as I hope to be forgiven, I’m not about to put much stake in that.

Sorry for the vagueness, but this is way too personal. And I’m way too tired. I’ll end off by saying that I’m grateful for my friends, for music, for food, and for time. Goodnight :3