Ever since I came out to my wife and kids, and started being myself, my personality has changed, a lot. I’m more extroverted, weirdly enough. I’ve been a bit sharper with the kids, not in a mean way, but, more of a no-nonsense kinda way. I used to walk around the house naked all the time, but now I feel compelled to cover up. I blame a disconnect with my body on that one.

I feel more confident to just, go up and talk to people, ask if I can take their picture. I can make posts without second-guessing myself and deleting them.

I know it’s all just me finally getting in touch with myself, but it feels weird, even to me. I used to be this demure, quiet, self conscious girl, but now that I’m letting her out, she refuses to go back into the box. It’s like a seal was broken. I’m having anxiety about going to my nephews birthday party, cuz I’m not out to that part of my family, and most of them are fundamental Christians.

I did manage to talk to one of my brothers today, and he accepts me, though he has some bias. Basically told me if it was anyone else, he wouldn’t be so willing. So I have some work to do there. Or not, if I can’t help him see people as people.

Remember, everyone, not just the trans community: You are loved. You are valid. It’s okay for you to be you.

  • Blahaj_Blast@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    1 year ago

    Mine hasn’t been extreme, but I feel like once I got over the label avoidance hump and decided “back up and just observe and see how you feel” it’s like some internal criticizing and “correcting” behaviors subconsciously lowered or went away and suddenly didn’t feel weird about certain things anymore and feel like some mannerism changed a bit. I can’t think of any examples atm but I feel like other things changed as well. I’ve attributed it to whatever inhibition I had in one are that lowered may have changed others near it.

    But also I still fear coming out and not super confident in who I am so I may still be fighting things without realizing it more than I think I am.