There’s a comrade on Twitter, a youngster, who is an extremely, extremely dedicated reader of theory, who is repulsed by fictional and entertainment media on account of it almost universally being created by and harboring bourgeois-ridden thoughts, while also fearing it on account of it being counter-insurgency much like TVs were used to pacify and distract black prisoners in San Quentin from revolutionary action.
This caused me to have self-reflection. Should she be an example to follow? Should we forsake or move towards forsaking all media consumption aside from theory as she does lest we waste our time on commodities that many of the people we fight for have don’t have the privilege of enjoying? For we still have much work ahead of us. Indeed, I have seen for myself people mellowing out after fighting politically online and then focusing more on their hobbies (for better or worse, of course, many of them held poor political positions and were better off silent). But to her, her hobbies and politics are one in the same. It’s all she does, and she claims to not get burnout. She condemns the use of distractions to disengage for the sake of mental health for to her, theory and being engaged with politics sustains hers. And she has the exact mental disorders I do (as far as I’m aware). Even acknowledging the both of us grew up under different circumstances, I can’t help but feel an inferiority complex towards her. Perhaps that’s some sort of main character syndrome, the same that drives me to speak at length about my experiences here. But life, especially organization, isn’t a one-person show. I know this, that I can’t be her, and that she can’t be, say, Xi Jinping, but we each have our role to play.
I’m just wondering if I wasted my life. I’ve been playing video games since I was little and thus I thought and focused on them and other fantasy content at the expense of schoolwork that I found uninteresting and rote no matter how badly I was shamed and beaten by the school and my parents for neglecting it. I think back and wonder if I was ruined. This is a phenomenon she fears had affected her generation as she keeps becoming frustrated by her peer’s inabilities to focus on anything. Given all the circumstances, this was of course the only way my life could have gone, but now I wonder if I should really attempt to forsake all my fictional media, all the ties I’ve made with people based on it, to try to consume yet more theory in the hopes that I’ll eventually be repulsed by fiction and I’ll be able to joyfully commit to theory full time as she does. I’m taking a break from media and committing to theory for the time being but I admit, though I’m able to enjoy the theory, the process still has me fearful and sad. Withdrawal symptoms, perhaps? I think about what I can do even if I’m able to be extremely well-versed in theory. As I said, our upbringing are different. She’s able to operate in a big city full of potential comrades, whereas I live in a rural, deserted area where I can’t easily leave and thus I’d have limited ability to spread communism or organize. I also wonder, even if I somehow commit to such a path if she and I won’t actually end up eventually burning out after all. What do you think? Should we stigmatize and caution against consumption of fiction or entertainment?
Rarely have I meet people who can read hard theory after a long day of work, even comrades. Expecting the general membership of the working class to won’t get one anywhere, and we have to meet them where they are and not where we wish for them to be. In this case, you will have an easier time reaching people who have engaged in similar media, even if you’re nitpicking it. It pays to be aware how things can be said, such as “With great power, comes great responsibility.” On the one hand, someone could look at this line and argue for Imperial intervention abroad is an obligation of every superpower. On the other, if you point out Billionaires could end starvation but don’t, this line will resonate with a lot of people that the capitalist have failed to be responsible with their wealth and power. Allegory has always been historically powerful to talk about sensitive topics people otherwise wouldn’t talk about, it is not a bad communication tool to have and utilize. Meet the working class around you where they are. If they are not reading dry theory, do not expect to meet them at that point. Chances are, they are engaging in alot of entertainment to distract them from poor material conditions, so you will have an easier time building class consciousness and unity through that shared entertainment.