Hi Friends,

ADHD/Anxiety/OCD haver here. Coping with the symptoms of those 3 disorders especially around the holidays has me feeling really crappy. Mostly because of my poor communication skills with regards to my family. It’s causing stress and strain on my wife and resulted in a fight today.

I don’t know what to do, all I can think about is how much I resent myself for letting this behavior go on for most of my life and now letting it negatively impact my marriage.

I’m not here looking for solutions, but any advice wouldn’t be unappreciated.

More so, I am just looking to say out loud the thing that is eating me up inside…

I am so resentful of myself and wish I could snap my fingers and be better at life. I’m sick of people around me taking the brunt of the mental/emotional baggage I unleash on my surroundings just because I can’t handle being an adult. It’s so exhausting being me and I hate it.

Thanks for reading.

  • inv3r5ion@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    3 days ago

    I’ve got a bunch of neurodivergence myself and the holidays this year are especially hard for me. I’ve had a tough year and when I asked my millionaire family members for help (for the first time in my 35 years of being alive) they told me I’d figure it out.

    I figured out I no longer need to speak to my family if they can’t be there for me when times are tough. See, I figured it out! 😭

    • nothx [he/him]@hexbear.netOP
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      3 days ago

      Thanks for the response, the camaraderie means a lot. Knowing when to cut people out of your life is just as important as knowing how to let people into it. I hope things start looking up for you. Happy holidays, comrade.