It is very tiresome and painful for me (AuDHD) because of the:

  1. Open office setup which leaves me unable to slack comfortably when I have reached my limit, leading me to overwork
  2. The forced socializing because I have to negotiate with the rest of the developers and testers, while having to mask throughout the whole day (I reached the point where most days I don’t eat with the rest of the devs but I just eat alone to recharge)
  3. The fact that most of my working time consists of waiting for the programs to compile, while I just scroll on the phone in waiting mode and feeling very understimulated
  4. The long commute (2h back and forth), which combined with the 8h of work have left me with no time and energy for my personal interests. I imagine neurotypicals also suffer greatly from this, but as my interests are a fundamental part of my identity I feel like my self has been completely squashed to fit into the “job mode” box
  5. My work PC is monitored so I can’t even go into this site or talk with my leftist gf and friend group (also occasional drug users). I need this communication and shitposting time as a break from work yet I don’t have it. I feel socially castrated
  6. The daily status report meetings force me to work even on days where I can’t fucking take it anymore just so I have something to say, and also interrupt me while I am working by forcing a context switch

I just cope by using drugs bi-weekly (pregabalin, psychedelics and dissociatives) but even then instead of enjoying the trip I always come back to venting about work and capitalism to my poor gf

Have you found some trick to survive while working, without getting burnt out? I want to listen to your experiences. If this post isn’t appropriate for this comm, feel free to delete it

  • Bobson_Dugnutt [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    11 days ago

    Is your commute two hours each way, or two hours total per day? Either way that sounds brutal.

    I try and find a quiet corner away from people to work at, and wear headphones so mostly people leave me alone. I take long bathroom breaks and shitpost on the toilet. I take all my vacation time every year, and sometimes call out sick if I’m not feeling like working. I don’t volunteer for overtime or special responsibilities. I stay out of office politics as much as possible. Maybe this is why I’ve never been promoted ever.