It is very tiresome and painful for me (AuDHD) because of the:
- Open office setup which leaves me unable to slack comfortably when I have reached my limit, leading me to overwork
- The forced socializing because I have to negotiate with the rest of the developers and testers, while having to mask throughout the whole day (I reached the point where most days I don’t eat with the rest of the devs but I just eat alone to recharge)
- The fact that most of my working time consists of waiting for the programs to compile, while I just scroll on the phone in waiting mode and feeling very understimulated
- The long commute (2h back and forth), which combined with the 8h of work have left me with no time and energy for my personal interests. I imagine neurotypicals also suffer greatly from this, but as my interests are a fundamental part of my identity I feel like my self has been completely squashed to fit into the “job mode” box
- My work PC is monitored so I can’t even go into this site or talk with my leftist gf and friend group (also occasional drug users). I need this communication and shitposting time as a break from work yet I don’t have it. I feel socially castrated
- The daily status report meetings force me to work even on days where I can’t fucking take it anymore just so I have something to say, and also interrupt me while I am working by forcing a context switch
I just cope by using drugs bi-weekly (pregabalin, psychedelics and dissociatives) but even then instead of enjoying the trip I always come back to venting about work and capitalism to my poor gf
Have you found some trick to survive while working, without getting burnt out? I want to listen to your experiences. If this post isn’t appropriate for this comm, feel free to delete it
I got fired, way less work stress now