just finished my 43rd book of the year; currently helping administer an idea for a confederation of websites and we just got our Loomio set up
Lil bit of a bummer, feels like I just exercise, work, and sleep. My limited free time has been spent on my family, which… ughhhh by the time I realized they mistreated me all my life and I hate them, they’d lost power over me, so basically they’re not pushing me around anymore and think we’re all friends, and I don’t know how to tell them that I’m retroactively spiteful. So I play nice.
Gonna try so hard to get some reading and drawing done in the coming days.
Had a great weekend!
I started a D&D campaign with friends and it was a great first session. I love my character coming to life. There are some background things to figure out still but I love love playing them so the whole thing is already a big win in my book.
This week will be my final days of chilling at home before I start my new job next Tuesday. I’m excited to start doing something again after 2.5 months unemployed. Trying not to think about how tired I’ll be in 2 weeks from now 😅
Today is my birthday! so wish me a happy birthday
Took a week off from work last week. Maybe you could tell because I wasn’t on Beehaw all the time posting stupid memes lol. Spent the week dogsitting for my parents. I packed my gaming PC and made some great progress in Dork Souls 2, and binged those Castlevania animes on Netflix. I love to match “vibes” like this across my media I’m consuming. I also took the opportunity to take a lil t-break from the devil’s lettuce, and i’m definitely better off for it. Most importantly, I got in lots of R&R and I feel more rested, happy, and creative than I have in months. Back at work now and amazed how much easier my job is when i’m not constantly fighting burnout.
Happy belated!
Happy bday!!!
Happy birthday! wiggles happy-wishily!
had some really icky back pain last week, so i’ve been trying to do yoga in the mornings before work.
jean got another title and i fostered a puppy over the weekend.
picked up a dog bike trailer yesterday from a friend, and i started teaching echo (border collie) how to sit/stand/lay calmly in it this afternoon in the driveway. hoping she will enjoy it!
Been sick for 13 days, went in to urgent care yesterday because it had progressed to a sore throat in the last few days and turns out it’s strep. Glad I’m on antibiotics and hoping to feel better soon.
I hope it passes quickly and you can get some good rest over the next few days!
Bleeeh 🤷 Really wishing I could play certain games. Am missing ESO really hard latelish 😅 Money concerns getting real nasty. Bills piling up upon themselves. Local cash assistance stuff has been unhelpful and I don’t know what to do about that. Finally got a therapist… who seems to be just kinda going through paperwork with nothing to say of her own and no actually listening/talking to me. Just, y’know, filling out forms kinda stuff. For hours at a time @.@ Idunno if it’s really supposed to be like this for the first several appointments but I just feel like I’m not going to get any actual help from her. I think my way forward right now is to get onto SSI and see a psychiatrist and a therapist who’s actually good for me, but I’m kinda afraid to say any of that to her (and make myself look like I’m just looking for free money or something, and… Idunno just vibes-wise, I guess, I feel like she’s not exactly eager to help) and don’t know what else to do 🤷 :-\ So I’m just kinda stuck in this “Well, now what?” spot trying not to think about how unlikely it is that I’ll be able to escape more awful messness. Even having debt collectors to look forward to sounds like torture, given some of my problems.
Bleh. Very bleh! Double bleh with an ugh on top. Also maybe a little grr. frusses noisily, then skitters into a nearby cloud 😶🌫️
Edit: Oh, and I’ve got some kinda spot like I oopsed up a rib or something and it hurts a lot when I sneeze D: Also hurts when I move some ways. Unfun!
Finally got a therapist… who seems to be just kinda going through paperwork with nothing to say of her own and no actually listening/talking to me. Just, y’know, filling out forms kinda stuff. For hours at a time @.@ Idunno if it’s really supposed to be like this for the first several appointments but I just feel like I’m not going to get any actual help from her.
It is not supposed to feel like that. Sorry to hear that! My first therapist was not the best for me, but even still I remember being excited and energized about therapy after the very first session and many more after. I think your goal of finding a NEW therapist is a smart one! I’m sorry about the struggles you are going through, I hope it turns around soonish ❤
What’s preventing you from playing ESO?
Thankies! Calling and going are hugely difficult for me so finding and setting up with a new one is gonna be rough. … If I can even bring myself to do it :-\ Bleeegh!
Can’t play ESO because I’ve only got my laptop and it just cannot run the game playably. Had to leave my (rather old but still vaguely capable) gaming box when I fled a few months ago. wobble Something that makes it even worse is knowing I could easily lose interest instantly upon loading the game back up 😅 Something I’ve put a lot of time into tends to fail to hold interest no matter how much I feel like I’ll love getting back into it, once I’ve left it. … I lose interest pretty quickly, unfortunately. Have to have new ways of doing things or I have no interest in doing them even if they’re new things. Finishing games is hard for me because there’s usually no growing or (mechanical) learning left to do at the end :-\
Thankies! Calling and going are hugely difficult for me so finding and setting up with a new one is gonna be rough. … If I can even bring myself to do it :-\ Bleeegh!
I am probably more neurotypical than you, and I absolutely have the same problem. Don’t beat yourself up about it too much, it is objectively difficult to do.
Can’t play ESO because I’ve only got my laptop and it just cannot run the game playably.
Ugh that stinks. There are probably tons of indie and other 2D games that would work though? Have any of those caught your interest at all lately?
