How old were you when you began questioning/considering you weren’t “normal”? I’m in my 30s and almost all at once feel like I’m not sure what I am in most demensions and struggling to figure out what I feel about anything. I’ve been married, happily for a while, which adds a little to the confusion.
Me at 12: Huh. I’m not feeling this whole sexual attraction malarky. Oh, I’m sure I’ll grow into it.
Me at 15: Still not getting crushes. I’ma just gonna label myself as asexual for the time being till I get a crush on somebody and then define my attraction based on that. (At this point I did not think of asexual as LGBT, nor myself)
Me at 19: Today I learned there are people who believe asexuals belong in the LGBT community, passionately enough to brain somebody for excluding me. Cool. But I still don’t feel like I belong, and it is my firm belief that if someone doesn’t want to be a part of a community, they’re allowed to not join, and I don’t feel comfortable joining.
Me at 22: Why the fuck am I so averse to joining the LGBT community? Have I fallen down some sort of propaganda hole? FUCK IT! I AM ACE, I AM LGBT AND ANYONE WITH A PROBLEM WITH THAT CAN SUCK ON MY TANK OF CHLORINE GAS! Well glad to finally have everything figured out! (eggs start cracking in my friendgroup)
I’m not sure it ever ends tbh